You choose to be who you are by repeatedly doing what you decide to do, consistently, continuously.
While waiting to upload your physical brain, do yourself a favor, backup your digital documents now. And check if it worked.
Big but never or small but now? Lower the bar. Reduce expectations. Make yourself impossible to fail. Do it small.
Write daily, reflect on your day, and plan your tomorrows. You will become a better manager in any field of your life, personal and professional.
Transcribe your thoughts, frequently and intensely. You will become a better thinker and a better communicator.
Writing is also physical performance, when typing, train yourself to use all fingers without looking at the keyboard.