I’ve built a habit of writing every day. It was hard. I can now safely say that I write every day. It took me two long years after long decades of failure. Why did I do that? I did it to better myself. I always found it a waste to live a fragmented life without systematically making sense of what happens to us.

And that was the initial intention, to start a continuous conversation with myself. To learn more about me, to improve my skills, to create opportunities, personal and professional.

And, I must say, I got my share of benefits, for sure. But, systematically, when I consider this daily creative effort as a choir, I fall back into the trap of the routine. I write because I have to write. Which is fine, don’t get me wrong. But my goal is not just to fill a page with words to say I did it. It would defeat my original purpose.

What do I want, then? I need to go beyond the daily habit to write and publish.  Because it makes quite a difference to just write into your private journal (like I did for 365 days and half a million words) compared to publish it every single day, for instance, for more than 150 days like I am doing right now.

The threshold of going public makes a difference. Again, consider I am writing for myself, mamma, and a couple of dear friends, but I still have this habit so engrained with me that, really, I cannot stop.

So, what? What do you want, Max?

I miss going deeper. I cannot reserve more than 20-30 minutes per day for this personal creative space. And it is barely enough to put up a new blog post. Where is the deep reflection about worthy topics? Where are the insights? The reflections? The new ideas?

I miss going deeper. And I need to be patient. One possibility is to take the tiniest piece of a concept and write about it in those 30 minutes. I can write 300 words in half an hour which is not bad. 

What if I go to 200 words, but I take time to do lightning research and validation? I would move from the spur of the moment, of the flow of conscience (like this, for instance) to a little more deep thought I might be prouder to share.

That’s for me to test and see if it works.

Go to explore, Max!

Written in 12 Minutes. Revised in 5 minutes.

I am Massimo Curatella, and this is my DAY 19 Article in the CREAZEE Daily Writing Challenge and 156th daily article in a row.